my mind is so bold
Saturday, June 27, 2009 at 6:49 PM
its
saturday already.
like two days to day one of school.
homework check: physics untouched, chemistry untouched. both subjects: not understood
maths: kinematics/linearlaw/trigoIII.
anyway its a weird day. i had weird thoughts. weird feelings.
feelings i dont deserve to have in the first place.
i think my mind is getting more bold. its thinking of all the impossibles.
at this rate if it keeps going on, i'm going to explode soon.
first things first, i caught Ghost of Girlfriend's past with ying today. it was great.
not bad really, quite interesting and a little bit touching. and a little bit horny.
& a totally failed attempt to study at Ben & Jerry's. bad environment, very distracting luh.
i never felt like this before. but each time a message comes in, my heart will skip a beat.
i mean it seriously. its not like those drama-drama shit. if only it was from you.
but for hours, it wasn't. i guess im thinking too much cause you're probably just busy/asleep.
i dont think you'll be reading this thats why this mind of mine is bolder. wow.
and another you, seriously i don't think it will work out. i don't even seem to miss you.
if i do miss a person, it comes so naturally, i do not need to even try. neither do i feel a need to see you.
i feel like a slut saying that. but its true. this is the amount of stress im facing.
for you, you can be going through emo/sad shits cause of what i typed.
but you have a choice, and you are the one making all the decisions yourself.
im just waiting here having so much stress while you fight for your own happiness.
back to the previous one. simply, i think im crazy. i should not even be thinking about you this way. its not like we can be together or something. but this crazy weird foolish thoughts im having just cant seem to get chase out of my mind. if you knew that it was you, i think we can even forget about being friends. okay weird. why am i typing so much things that makes no use in the end. attention-seeking? i somehow think it may be something along that line. thats disgusting, but i dont wish to cancel off everything i've typed. this love is killing. slowly.
ilikeyousosomuch.now now... whatever-.-
Tag Replies: (this gets easier to reply)Michelle: whatttt! how has your nightmare got to do with me. i bring only sweet dreams okay!
Huien: AhMa!! no problem! (:
