Wednesday, April 23, 2008 at 8:41 AM
hi. on days like such, there's just this voice or rather instinct (wdv it is) that lets you know for sure that it isnt the best day in your life. not that its the worst either. because it really isnt. but its really life. life's really a unique concoction. i somehow think or know that many people described it in such a way too because they're trying to act chimo. hm. but life is really something that only can be understood deeply using your eyes to see, touch to experience, hearing to enlighten and grasp the world's tiniest sound of life. and of course, taste to know the sweetness or bitterness of life. lastly, the sense of smell. something hard to live without.
as it is, life is often taken for granted. and for people like myself, i think so differently on the inside yet i behave otherwise. i do really understand most things that occur in life, but on the surface you really would think im like ungrateful. i practically said the f-word 60+ times today. it just comes out very fluently and easily. there's really nth hard about it. but okay what im going to say really contradicts whatever understanding in depth of life i have been typing before this: i still think i hate the way life is made. its supposingly beautiful. yet beautiful is another complicated word. its so complex.
beauty? its the way we look at it. when some people witness death, they might say its a beauty. and in actual fact, we cnt say they're wrong nor hate them. its what they see beyond death that makes them think that way. this life is so beautiful really. everything is beautiful k? so love everyone else and yourself :]
ignore me. i randomed.
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the time it goes.-bryan
