Thursday, January 17, 2008 at 9:17 AM
I bet you feel the same; school just doesnt seem like school.
doesnt feel like sec3 life. getting slacker for now.
today? no homework at all-.-
but there is projects to do i guess :/
ytd PE there was vball. ehh i miss my last year skills ):
i seriousl feel screwed up. so many issues OKAY!?
indeed, screw me first.
i look super happy in class right.
so high, so lively. but would you rather me sad and quiet?
no duhh. cant you guys just know how to tell whether i am
HAPPY or NOT? okay i guess you cant.
Class jersey is already something to kill me.
you guys make decisions here and there.
and you see, i was not the only one who went to
handle the class tee matters. but everyday, i enter class.
you guys keep asking me to be the one to explain to the class.
why? you guys will say cause i am in charge (wdv mann, i am just HELPING)
next, anything goes wrong though you guys came with me, i get screwed.
because you guys insist me telling the class.
anyone unhappy? they just come and hate me. HATE ME-.-
and its not like i am very nice to hate?
look at things this way. if you would actually realise.
i am not loved for the things i do.
but only hated for what i do wrong.
you want me to screw you first before you screw me?
LET GET THINGS CLEAR.
what happened in year1?
the year was unenjoyable because of that weird bgr rumour.
forget it. year2?
more bgr rumours. c'mon i already can manage those rumours now.
so its fine. but it suck. i am glad nothing is happening now but..
i keep wondering.. did i seriously did some seriously bad thing that time.
which actuallt ruined my ending of year2 for me? it cant be right..
no matter how bad it was, it wouldnt be that bad.
think about the things i do. every simple act counts.
i aint at all a petty and selfish character.
someone drops a paper next to him on floor?
i pick it up duhh. no matter how far it is from me. i just rush up and pick.
someone is thirsty, wans to buy drink?
i got spare change, just fcking let him have it. he's a friend-.-
someone does some wrong thing etc. and seriously ALOT of others.
and i keep forgetting, forgiving, helping helping..
i am not a dolphin. dont take advantage of me.
and i am saying this.
you people arent taking advantage of me thats right.
i was just being nice at all times helping.
if thing go well, you're happy. good.
i gain nothing. so what? friends-.-
if things just mess up, i get screwed.
for what? SCREW MANN!
i dont know. life isnt fair.
if i keep quiet when i just feel sad in school,
people will find me abnormal and ask me why i emo.
they will ask me to talk, laugh normally.
and if i do so, i tend to get high and irritating.
whose fault to blame? i dont know..
nvm. i dontwant to go all screwing here and there.
seriously. today in class i wanted to shout FCK freaking loud.
but i controlled my anger and just screeched damn loudly for a moment
i guess people thought i was nuts. but no..
and if you are reading this. i am seriously not angry or sad with anyone.
i just feel screwed because i have too much troubles yet i keep getting hated
when something goes wrong. and i am glad that we manage to so called talk
again this year. if not going to 3E everyday will be sad and lonely ):
and one thing too. each time i really get sad and dontwant to talk or wdv.
daren or someone will just say: aiyah, emoing again. or act emo lo. wan attention.
haha. then i will just feel screwed. because when i am feeling sad.
i am not the sort who wants attention.
nor am i the sort who will try to make people ask me why i am sad.
i am the sort to try to stay lively and high, so that no one.
NO ONE. will think that i am sad. and then i will be irritating me.
the one they will dislike when i happen to do something wrong.
they just never appreciate actually how much i do.
if you think my mind's scary. yes, maybe.
i can actually rmb everything from year1 till now.
except probably if you test me on my textbooks/subjects :X
haha!
ytd daren said he heart bleeding. lawl?
hope he doesnt feel so sad today. and they and their ** ***.
haha. whatever. i dontknow her :D
and darick seriously cant sing DAMN nice.
you all say its DAMN nice. but i would just call it nice.
because if its really DAMN nice. he can go be singer.
hahaa. OKAY. tomorow must be happy boy (:
sean and edric likes to flirt with jiemin.
naughtyy.. actually they very bad.
cheat her feelings.
they flirt actually because of her GREY BIRD.
not duck kay sean. its an EMU/OSTRICH.
and i wont force you to lie to yourself.
so if its duck, then DUCK. hahahaha~
and sean scammed my 5k maple cash.
lucky i was in good mood.
or else, well, i just bought a new sharp scissors.
mwahahaha ^^
and really. i think you should actually know the truth
why i wasnt really in a good mood today okay?
dont go telling alyson i broke up with weian..
haha-.- and yes i rmb. SEAN FLIRTED WITH AN OLD AUNTY!
rawr. okay i am gonna get screwed if he sees this.
but if i am in bad mood, i got a scissors ready.
and i hope tomorow there will be a chance for me to
tell someone the truth. rather then being insulted and offended.
and my throat is darn dry. sorethroat le.
i let sean drink my water but he claim he left some.
but i try drink got nothing. jianfeng is gay.
he acts like he is so clean lo, when got horny things, he say we pervert.
other then these, today was really such a sad day for me..
just couldnt manage my emotions well.
and the way he acts when i am sad is FUNNY.
its like as if i am sad/angry over another dumb thing.
i am like angry because of some things plus what he did lo.
but i wont like be petty and rmb it. becos this is life.
and to survive, you must either get some people hating you,
while you keep some, and lead a happy life.
i wanna say: S C R E W
-bryan
