Sunday, September 23, 2007 at 9:11 PM
I dedicate this post to my heart and my principles.
"trust others still proven otherwise!!"
"believe in nothing but yourself, don't let what you see or hear affect you!"
And also to a few people out there.
Maureen> thanks for your concern. sorry i could not let you know what happen :D
Yingying> cheers okay? some things just happened this way. and no one is wrong. don't let whatever i say or anyone say affect how you think. trust yourself and no other. afterall as we said, no one has the right to hate others unless they're 100% perfect. And i've said that i dont hate and just forgive as sometimes things are not what they seem to be. just take care :D
Iris> i am sorry i let you down. yes you told me many times, but i cant bring myself to listen. sorry! =X
Michelle> thanks for keeping me smiling :D
Passerby> nice knowing you and thanks :)
Jiamin> haha and you said that time you knew how i felt, though i doubt so, thanks.
And yes.
to the you that hates me still:(
i never intended things this way.
its my foul mouth, my filthy ass.
cheer up and be happy. you hate me for all i care.
but i promised not to hate you. i forgive and forget.
i understand how you feel, understand your anger.
i helped you in times when you asked me to, but i didnt ask for repayment.
i wanted to let you know i am a friend who cares, but i turned out irritating instead.
i wanted you to see that things aren't how it seems, but guess you were too pissed.
i hoped you can understand things that happen around you, and put the past behind.
i want you to understand what i told you, those morals and sense i tried to talk into you.
like maureen said smth like: friendship's hard to get but easy to lose.
let's not let this happen to us can we? let us be the special ones.
it was indeed along journey since last year getting to be good friends.
just dont let it dissapear suddenly, and dont regret it when is too late
and i am sorry for breaking you two up. but it is just temporary. lets just patch):
and "why do some of them choose to trust me"
yes, i answer this honetly:
I didnt meant it this way.
I was just straightforward with my words to whom i spoke, thus they rather believe what i say as i am open. but to you, blunt's the word,
too blunt that i hide no facts and that whatever i speak's nothing but the truth, regardless if it i hurting or not. i dont care. i just want to be honest with my thoughts. and yes, it is indeed very blunt. this i realised and feel remorse. i am willing to stop being like this just for your sake. because i had all along treasured this friendship we had, aint sure if you did. but with comparisons to how we were last time, yes i digged up all the old memories, i think its a pity to just lose it over misunderstanding and my filthy mouth. and it isn't worth it to boil yourself with hatred when its more relaxing to forgive. and those people rather believe what i say, because i speak without biasm. i bet you think i give a one sided story. i seriously don't. i made them realise that they have to understand how you feel too before judging you or me. and its important to trust your friend and that's why i dont think she's that angry over some stuff yes.. and seriously, if we give way a little to each other an patch up. for heaven's sake, the friendship would indeed be interesting with lots of spices, sugar, bitterness and of course sorrow added to be a rather unique mix or friendship,
and a special touch of truth.
i dedicate those words to you, accompanie with my final sincere apology :D
my regards,
bryn<3
