Monday, August 06, 2007 at 8:41 PM
Now i truly understand..
I waved to you, got no response.
i waved again. nothing happened.
i remember thoe days, those things we did.
Was it myself that thought too far?
I just realised that i cant escape from reality.
yes, you made me smile, made me cry(in a way)
you were angered by me, cheered up by me.
My actions never failed to leave a significant reaction.
You either get freaking pissed, or you'll laugh like there's no tomorow.
I thought about it, if i was right..
i spent time with others, and now it was you.
I broke with them, because of the present you.
The smile i see on your face just brightens my day, solemn as i get.
The fear i shudder, was the fear of angering you.
Be it with you, or without.
Be it your smile, your anger.
Be it your pekcekness, your cheerfulness.
Be it i try or not.
I get the response i got.
the very same..
But must it really be that way?
we are now close enough. but it seems like just normal friends.
i cant make that move, its too big a step to take.
Though i feel sad for such an outcome, the only consulation
is that you do, treat me as a friend, a good one too.
I try not to think too much, but i have yet numerous past experience.
you're my present. you're my future, i might not live without.
Might not. for it might sound too creepy if i WOULD NOT.
and no, i didnt take the wrong medicine, and i'm serious.
I ponder about my feelings for you, doubting if i should get closer.
And i now realised, that i want to, but how should we go about.
You doubt me at times when i'm innocent, that feeling that made me down.
no. i'm not being creepy. i am just gonna try. No better ones i will find.
I know it because i have tried.
you're my present. my future. and i promise as you asked,
Yes i won't emo. but i rather call it to 'be emotional'
Your unpleasant experience, yeah hard and terrible.
and now the experience has passed to yet another friend.
Yeah, its too weird now, but will there be a next time?
You wouldnt dare, and it took me so much to dare.
Yet its worth it, i decided to let it out.
You're the present and i agree. its bttr to be scolded then ignored.
i just want respect in the things i say, and dont, no give me no doubts.
Anyway i'm sad.
I ain't a physco.
Arghh.. nvm.
You will see my point won't you?
-bryn
